Happy sweet 20th birthday to Pei Pei. Had lunch with her after school. Shared a present with Sili and I bought her a small little birthday cake. hope she will enjoy her day..
Had an argument with my brother just now, always said that I study in MDIS is useless!!
Always said I wasted my parents money of study in a private school.
Yes I'm not like him so smart can go to a good JC, can study A level or maybe in future can get into a good University.
I also want to go to local uni, I do try hard, but no use, I'm not smart. Always scolded by people I'm stupid, I'm useless. I had listened this 2 words over a thousand times. Who scold me with these 2 words? who? My brother sometimes, my dad, my family. Why? sometimes I wonder do I belong to this family? Do I belong to them? I don't know. I felt like I'm not part of this family. I felt like I'm an outsider.
Last time I really hate people asking me where am I study now. I really hate it. I think is a shame to study in private school. Because you are not smart enough to go to local school.
that's why I always think I have some "distance" between them... Nowadays I don't wanna go small group, I'm trying to run away from them, I don't dare to talk to them, Big distance between us.
I envy people who get good results, can go to good school to study, can find someone who love them. Relationship is another problem, honestly I cried a few times because of some guys. this time I also cried because of him. Why people can find someone to love them so easily, but not me?? why? =(
~CaRvEn~
Happy sweet 20th birthday to Pei Pei. Had lunch with her after school. Shared a present with Sili and I bought her a small little birthday cake. hope she will enjoy her day..
