here they are: xiao wei, jia hao, xue yin, su yee, shi jia and valen...

yanling, we miss u... haha..

overall enjoy the time with them.. =)

i reached home at 12am.. i didn't join them for drink..

hopefully next time i can join them...=)

~CaRvEn~

Date: Saturday, May 26, 2007

meet with Berenice today...

haven seen her for like 2 years..

she told me alot about her class in MDIS..

haha.. hopefully she will enjoy her sch life...

suppose to go Pastamania to eat..

but long queue..

so went to cineleisure instead..

then long queue again..=(

so in the end went to Suki sushi to have our dinner

afterward shop around at cineleisure..

then went to take neoprint..

so long didn't take with her.. =)

today orchard super crowded..

maybe because sch holiday starting soon..

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if i don't go cineleisure today,

i will not meet u...

when i crossed the traffic light,

i saw u, i wasn't sure whether is it u..

u are just infront of me..

then inside cineleisure,

i just pass by u..

the feeling was so weird..

maybe u didn't notice me..

after dinner, we wanna go take neoprint..

then i saw u again..

saw u 2 times at cine..

when i saw u at the time,

i was so scare,

i wish that the person is not u...

cos i don't know how to face u..

wanna cry that time,

but i hold back my tears.. =(

this is the 1st time i saw u in person,

after what had happened..

haiz.. =(

WHY? why let me see u again...

gonna feel sad again.. =(

~CaRvEn~

Blades of glory

Date: Wednesday, May 23, 2007

today, went to vivocity to meet chi, jolene and simin..

we ate our lunch at " greenhouse cafe"

the food there are yummy.. haha.. =)

then went to watch "blades of glory"..

the show is so funny..

keep laughing.. =)

after the movie went to coffee bean to chit chat..

hmm... then went to jolene's hse..

overall.. i enjoy myself today..

I'm sick for like 1 week plus...

finally i recover from it.. =)

when i went to chinatown,

i felt abit emo..

cos u work there..

i don't wanna think about it anymore..

but when i see u online,

it makes me think about it again..

haiz.. when can i don't think about it?

maybe i should give up.. =(

~CaRvEn~

珍惜

Date: Tuesday, May 22, 2007

這個月所發生的事,
我一輩子都不會忘記,
雖然心情己平復不少,
但永遠都會有一根棘插在我心里...

有些人可能覺得我應該好容易忘記,
因為我不需要每天見到他,
是的,我可能永遠都不會見到他..
但又如何呢?
我承認可能我十分之喜歡他...
what i wish for, usually won't come true..

我知道你不想我不開心,
不想傷害我,
其實己經有一種被傷害的感覺..
我沒有告訴你,
我相信時間一定可以令我淡忘...

現在我可以做的,
就是勇敢地生活下去,
你不需要再擔心我,
因為你沒有這個必要,
你應該關心你愛的人...
己不是我,
你越對我好,
我越感到難過...

珍惜眼前人...

~CaRvEn~

I lost my voice

Date: Sunday, May 20, 2007

Haiz.. today even worst..
I totally lost my voice.. =(
now my throat is so pain..
haiz.. i went to see doctor for 3 times la..
1st time for fever, 2nd time for throat pain and blocked nose
3rd time cough
tmr is the 4th time..
haiz.. when can i recover?
sorry my dear fren,
I can't meet u today..
i will see u next week.. loves~~

~CaRvEn~

cough + goodbye

Date: Saturday, May 19, 2007

Yesterday, I have a very bad cough..
keep coughing throghout the night..
can't even sleep..
now my voice change..
err, I hate to be sick..
I'm so weak now.. =(
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sent my grandparents and aunt to airport,
i think they should be arrived in hk la..
next sunday will be my mummy's turn,
she is going back to do something..
I felt so lonely now..
like everyone is leaving me..
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I don't now whether am I completley forget about it...
or it is because I just so weak that i did not think about it.
althougth , there is time that i still thinking about u,
i know i can't do anything..
sooner or later i will forget about it..
just let it be..
i keep asking myself,
why this time it took me so long to recover,
are u that important to me?

~CaRvEn~

Vivocity + Marina square

Date: Thursday, May 17, 2007

went to Vivocity and Marina Square..

cos my aunt they all didn't been there before..

bring there for a walk..

and we took loads of photos..

enjoy the time with them...

~CaRvEn~

fever

Date: Tuesday, May 15, 2007

oh no.. have a slight fever yesterday..

a very bad headache..

lucky today feel abit better..

hopefully can get well soon...

haiz.. =(

i don't wanna get sick ar..

~CaRvEn~

Happy Mother's Day

Date: Sunday, May 13, 2007

Today is Mother's day...
here wish all Mothers have a happy mother's day..

I love Mummy...

and this year we are celebrating Mother's Day with my grandparents and Aunt as well...

enjoy myself today... =)

~CaRvEn~

Date: Thursday, May 10, 2007

2 days ago, you asked me whether am I ok,
honestly I'm not..
then u ask me why i cry?
then u asked is it because of u..
err.. i can say is yes la..
huh? i really don't know how to answer u..
haiz.. now u ask me so many weird Q,
what ans u expected from me?
u ask me what happen, ask me then how?
how i know? slowly don't think about it lor..
what can I do? right?
at least u still got talk to me...
i know i will get thru this,
no worries la,
i will be fine,
just that how long will it take.
there always be a scar in my heart...
slowly i will recover from it..
i really tired of it...
yes i admit i wanna leave this place,
i don't wanna stay here anymore..
i know i can't run away from it..
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To my sweetie fren, we must get thru it ya,
jia you together.. =) we shall meet up soon.. give u a hug...
love u sweetie.. muacks~~

~CaRvEn~

Spiderman 3+ Breeks Cafe

Date:

finally can watch spiderman 3.. went to meet Sili and pei at city hall... the show quite nice.. feel abit better today with their accompany.. after the show, went to have dinner at Breeks Cafe.. yummy~~ then walk around Esplanade and we took alot of photos.. share the photos with your.

~CaRvEn~

I love my lovely frenz

Date: Tuesday, May 08, 2007

Thanks a million!! really thanks alot to all my lovely fren..
thanks for those who care about me all these while..
thanks for all your sms, freindster comment even in MSn msg..
A big thanks to all of you..

although i still feel sad, but I'm glad to have all the support from your..
friends are sooooo good to me..
they are my precious,
i can't imagine how i'm going to survive if i don't have them.
i must treasure them,
they are like angels that God sent them to me...

I LOVE all of my sweetie frenz...
gonna meet up with some of them.. yeah!! =)
LOVE your always..

~CaRvEn~

Sad

Date: Monday, May 07, 2007

Yesterday, I cried a few times,

i really cannot take it.

it's difficult for me to recover from it,

I can't pretend there is nothing happen.

I do laugh infront of my family,

I pretend I'm very happy and there is nothing happen.

( Because I cannot let them know)

I do try to forget about it,

somehow it FAILED!!

my mind just keep thinking what you had told me.

usually, when i'm sad, once i cried out loud,

the next day i will definitely feel better.

But this time, I can't!!

why??

i really hope i can turn back the time,

of course it is IMMPOSSIBLE.

and my grandparents and aunt are coming this sat,

So I have to pretend I'm happy again!!

you say we can remain as fren, BUT at this time,

I'm sorry i can't..

I can't pretend there is nothing happen!!

hopefully i can get it over soon...

YES, i'm having a very hard time..

haiz... i wanna cry again... =(

~CaRvEn~

Super down

Date: Sunday, May 06, 2007

thanks for the ans...
I always do not get what i wish for..
it torturing me for more than 3 months..
now it all over...

how i feel right now, definitely will going to torture me for another few months..
i'm sure time will heal me.. but i don't know how long it will take!!
can I be Strong? at this point of time i can say definitely NO!! (tears keep rolling down)

so if u see me smiling.. honestly i just pretending to be happy..
cos i do not want to affect other people around me..
these few days although i look happy
actually inside my heart is full of pain.. i felt extremely down..

now, i just want to cry..
anyway. i still wish u will have a happy life ahead..

~CaRvEn~

thank you

Date: Friday, May 04, 2007

it's real torturing...
somehow i wish i do not have to face it..
since i already started so i must face it myself!!
but I know God will be at my side..
although i didn't feel better
still thanks for all the concern...
i will try my best to be strong..
sorry if i make your worry..
I'm glad my frenz are always there for me..
once again thanks!!

~CaRvEn~

nothing much

Date:

nothing much happen these few days...
sch as usual..
more event will be coming up next week..
going to watch spiderman 3 with my lovely frenz next week,
my grandparents and aunt are coming to s'pore..
Yeah!! didn't seen them for half a year..
miss them very much...
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sometimes i wish this day will not come,
i don't wanna know the ans,
i scare i can't take it..
but i think better know the ans,
so that i do not have to think about it everyday..
haiz.. what had happen is already the past,
so i can't turn it back..
no matter what the outcome is,
i still have to accept it..
i'm waiting for it!!

~CaRvEn~

Date: Tuesday, May 01, 2007

人生就像坐過山車一樣,
有高,有低的,
這個世界上有很多為什么?
往往我們都不能得到一個正確的答案...

這兩個多月來,
我差不多晚晚失眠,
沒有一天能夠好好的睡覺,
一躺下來,腦子里不停地想東西,
這几天心情不是太好,
但還是會強顏歡笑,
因為不想影響身邊的人...

我想我要好好的靜下來,
但又想什么都不管,
很想逃避所要面對的問題,
但逃避又不能解決問題,
唯有去面對...
真矛盾呀!!

我只想要一個滿意的答案...

miss u...

~CaRvEn~